“Hope is a waking dream.” : Aristotle

Posted on 29th August, 2019

Hi amazing family, friends and followers,


I finished my last blog post waiting on comeback from London hospitals regarding participating in a PSMA Luticimide clinical trial.

The great news was that the University College London Hospital in Euston Road agreed to take me on, Nephrostomy pipework included.

I have had 4 'flying' visits to London since for consultations, scans and various tests etc.

Unfortunately my haemoglobin ( red blood cell ) count dropped below the threshold for the trial so I had to get a blood transfusion to bring my count back up. Everthing needs to be completed within 30 days of signing the trial consent form, so this transfusion put me back to the start of the process !

My last visit to London was to Guys hospital for a PSMA PET scan where Marydoll and myself were given a full conscierge service. BA flights to London, chaffeur waiting at airport to take us to Guys, overnight stay in hotel and same on way home.

Many thanks to Hakan our fantastic driver for giving us a guided tour of London on the way back to the airport :>).


Then the disappointing news ! I got a call from my trials consultant in London informing me that my cancer type wasn't compatible with the trial  ( PSMA Proteins, 80% plus of candidates are PSMA positive, but unfortunately not me ! ).

We were devastated,  to say the least,  as this was the only viable trial option available to me.

But where there is a will there is a way.

It has been a slog with a lot of pain, constant fatigue and lack of enery but I have been feeling a bit stronger over the last few weeks ( minus some days with the almost constant kidney / urine infections ! ) so have decided to go for a second round of chemo. They have also increased my pain relief and put me permanently onto steroids which seems to be helping a bit.


I will take the chemo one treatment at a time and keep going if I am able to tolerate it ok. 


I am also in discussions with the Beatson regarding participating in pre-trial drug testing and the posibility of more palliative radiotherapy treatments to help ease the ache in my spine. So a few things to keep me busy and motivated along the way.


On the sunnier side, we have been over to the caravan lots this summer and are planning a week in the sun somewhere before the chemo starts. We also had some great days with the grandkids over the school holidays. They certainly keep you going and take your mind off things for a while.





Wee Anabel started in P1 last week, seems no time at all   since she was crawling around the floor !

Some more pics in Arran .........



The NHS consultants and staff at the Beatson, Ayr Hospital, UCHL and Guys have been absolutely amazing and have looked after me so well. A huge thanks to all you guys, very much appreciated.

Love you to the stars and back Marydoll, for all your patience, support and love ♥


Catch up again soon.

Take care, G x



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Hi, Grahame, I stumbled on your blog while doing a bit of research for a book. I write about heroes and it’s an overused word these days, but the courage and tenacity with which you’ve faced your trials over the years is truly heroic. It’s been a long, long time since the bonfire building days at Dunshill Drive and kickabouts on the tarmac, but I have the fondest memories of those times in Jethart. Wishing you well. Doug

Grahame : Hi Doug, definately a very long time ago but great to hear from you and thanks for the lovely comments. Please let me know when you get this book published and I will have a read.
Take care, cheers Grahame.
Graham - you and your family never cease to amaze me. Stay strong - you are a fighter!

Grahame : Huge thanks for the kind comments Freda x
Mary keeps me up to date with your progress. Glad to hear that you are being so well looked after. I think your positive outlook pays a large part in your recovery. Onwards and upwards. M x

Grahame : Thanks for the kind comments Margaret
Thanks for the update Grahame. Love the views on Arran. Thinking about you.

Grahame : Cheers big pal and hope all is well with you.Catch up soon
Good luck with the Chemo Jock...Lots of love to you and your family....Tree & Mel xxxx

Grahame : Cheers guys, luv ya xxx
Always in my prayers keep strong young man β€οΈπŸ’‹

Grahame : Cheers pal
Thinking of you all hugs x
Grahame : Thanks and big hugs to you and fam Jeam x
You're such a star. Love you & Marydoll to bits xxxx
Grahame : Thanks Ann xxx
Grahame, what an amazing wonderful human being you are. I am truly humbled when I read your blog and realise all that you ,Mary and your family have come through with such strength, courage and dignity. Your blog gives such an insight into your condition and so much information and hope to those on the same journey. You are always in our prayers. Xx
Grahame : Thanks so much for the kind and lovely comments Jo. Love also to Mike and the boys xxx
Your ongoing bravery and optimism is a shining beacon for all of us Cuz. And that of Marydoll too. I'm honoured to be related!! I really hope there will come a positive turning point, and you'll rise up and bite this dragons head clean off. Meanwhile, we all love you, and are willing you on. Those little buttons of grandchildren are too adorable. I've just got my 5th, but not caught up with you yet. Lots of love and hope follows you every day Grahame. Xxx
Grahame : Huge thanks Jeannie. Great news re Gemma. See you soon hopefully and we can catch up on all the details xxx
Gigi....much love and healing and increased appetite to you my friend.
Keep on sloggin... love ya
Grahame : Luv ya, get your ass over here soon xxx
Grahame you are amazing! Much love to you and Mary xxx
Grahame : Cheers Debbie xxx
Sorry to hear that you were not compatible for the trial Graham, but wherever you get your strength from - we hope you have more of it! Wishing you the best for the chemo, hope it helps. Hugs to you and Mary xxx
Grahame : Huge thanks guys, hopefully catch up before too long xxx
Great to hear from you, your such an amazing role model and inspiration to so many others. Your body has certainly taken a few knocks since diagnosis, your ability to deal with and stay positive is remarkable. Enough of that, enjoy those valuable family times together, thank God for the caravan. I hope they make steps in reducing the pain and discomfort, and the Chemo has the desired effect. Best Wishes from the three of us, thinking of. Good Luck 🍻🍷
Grahame : Huge thanks guys, take care abd keep well x
Love you Uncle G! X
Grahame : Take care and love you son x
Graham , your just super and as always simply inspirational. Am thinking of you and your family , keep fighting the good fight and continue to fly that flag ! Hope maybe you might make it over for a visit to Ireland - if you do give me a shout for a catch up beverage !!!
Grahame : Huge thanks Grainne. Would love to get over, maybe try and arrange something with Mark in the not too distant future x
Keep on keeping on Jox! We are all with you either physically, mentally or emotionally- you’re still the wee jocky to me mate! πŸ˜œπŸ‘πŸΌπŸ‘πŸΌπŸ‘πŸΌπŸ‘πŸΌπŸ‘πŸΌπŸ˜œπŸ˜œ
Grahame : Cheers big pal, will defo get to one of these reunions soon. Love to Jan and fam xxx
Unfortunate news about the trial Uncle G - hopefully more might be available soon. Take care and see you soon!
Grahame : Thanks and new treatments coming all the time. Take care x
Hi Graham,
Sorry to hear about the trial, loving your positive attitude and fighting spirit. Keep it up.
All the best
Grahame : All the very best Des, thanks.